Wowz..

I am going to be leaving in 3 days.....for MONGOLIAAAAA

Im very excited....

cannot contain this EXCITEMENT!!

it's very evident in my writing........

lol

Well now...im around 46% in my funding and im leaving soon....what am i going to do........I have no idea but im pretty sure it'll come through...

But I got to pack.....and in terms of packing for Mongolia....what do i bring? I think I need to go shopping lol

And I cannot absolutely get sick. OR ELSE!!!! ( ill be detained and quarantined at the airport)

The Swine Flu craze has swept the WORLD! PANIC! AHHHHHHHH

I think nothing will happen ( i think i jinxed myself)

Oh man I wonder what mongolian food tastes like. Hopefully it'll be good. I think we'll be playing rock paper scissors alot....to eat the food and to not eat it....when the mongolians arent looking of course. lol

But anyway im really excited to make some mongolian friends.....if my imagination is correct, ill be riding horses across vast plains, shooting arrows at targets hundreds of yards away, and wrestling fat mongolian men.

buuuuutt I cant forget why im going to mongolia!!

Tired....

I am so tired right now...

I havent ran a marathon or climbed the steep side of a cliff...but for some reason, I am physically drained. I wish there was some kind of energy shot i could just inject into myself so i dont feel like jumping off a waterfall. 

If the waterfall doesnt happen, just sleeping forever would be nice. It would actually be lovely.

Oh how tormented is my teenage soul! (im kinda glad im still a teen (19)) 

How it longs for rest~ lol

poetic! no?

over dramatic!~ HA

Le Sigh.......

But in all seriousness

I think i have never been so tormented. I have never been so physically and mentally drained. 

I think its because im preparing for my trip to mongolia. 

It is also because Im trying to prepare myself for mongolia~(theres a differance between the last two) I figure no ones perfect...soooo I, wanting to be a better person, try to get rid of bad habits, learn more about what it means to love, forgive and be compassionate(following a certain role model). This is hard -___-;;

 The effect i get from doing this : A life that is full and meaningful. I get to face struggle and hardship yet joy and immese pleasure. I am not trying to bend event that unfold to my will (i think that when chaos occurs) but try and bend my will into the event that are coming. So basically be more flexable :D

Sounds pretty easy....yet it is so tiring, so draining.....