Its been a while.

Its so easy to forget, even thing that happened almost on a daily basis. Its so easy to to get lost in the motions of things around you and completely loose yourself...like who you are. What is your identity! GAHH! Its like I was hypnotized! AHH! When everyone demands so much how do you answer!?! How do you figure out what the top priority is and what to do?!?! Do you bury yourself?(...the weight is unbearable..) WHAT DOO YOOUU DOOO!!!!
(....ok this almost sounds emo..and I didnt even intend for it to. haha I just wanted to say that Im back to writing on this blog after like 5 months of nothing..lol)
But really. its so hard not to become attached to the bad habits...or/and just not care.
There is not caring, being indifferent...then theres not worrying which is confidence....assurance....that the task will be completed.
Not caring is bad, it gives you a cold heart so its better not to worry then to not care at all.
We fall into this mindset of not caring very naturally...the only thing that stirs us is self interest...Im so selfish.
Then when this instinct of WANT takes over, greed and envy is introduced then comes obsession!...it gets dark pretty quick.

Woe is me, this world we live in consuming and I am one of its inhabitants...

Its hard to break free. Its a fight and its so hard.
Alas! I suffer!!...But is there something for this suffering??!?!
YES! There is!!!
Rejoice in suffering because suffering produces perseverance and perseverance produces character; and character, HOPE! Hope is good. I like hope. <3