What is Happiness?

Wow. For some reason the title sounds depressing...No? Well i feel like it gives off a certain element of saddness, like a small tear to my eye, as if a small orphan boy was pulling on the legs of my pants asking for his mother....overpowering?... unrealistic? Yeah.....well anyway the reason for this title was because while i was sitting in my room meditating and focusing on the life force around me (just kidding! i was just being otaku) I started wondering about emotions and how it makes us do silliest(or creepiest) of things! Im pretty sure everyone knows what im talking about..if not...i dont know what to say. 

But anyway Emotions: Good? Bad? Personally I would love to live without them in certain moments of my life. It would certainly make things less...crazy...but anyway I think emotions keep us human, and realistic. I makes us humble...if we didnt have emotions we would be absolutely FEARLESS. (If one watched the episode of "Fairly odd parents" where Timmy wishes he didn't have emotions one would find my statement true lol )...Well anyway what i was getting at with this was what does one feel when one is consumed by ones emotions (too many one lol). 

For Example....(Oh this is perfect) In the beginning of this blog entry i was talking about some orphan boy pulling on my pants leg, right? Well imagining that should tug a couple of heart strings and produce a feeling as if someone is squeezing your heart. Every emotion brings out a certain feeling. When one feels anger, despair, hurt, and laughter ones body reacts. But what about happiness? When I try to remember the feeling of happiness nothing comes up. (is it weird im thinking about this? i mean it doesnt help im writing this 3 in the morning...lol) When i try to feel happy, what is it im trying to feel? Dont confuse happiness with joy, they're different.

So in the end is happiness just a facial expression? A feeling of nothing? What is it? GAHH

ok 

anyway.........

Winter break was fun! Had fun with everyone back at home and im glad i got to talk to people i havent talked to in a while. Hopefully these friendships wont die out.

 I also learned alot thanks to Vision Conference and hopefully ill keep learning :D woo lol