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Ok..Janets not commenting my blog...I was kinda waiting for her so that i can go on to my next post(because i have so much to say!) but....that doesnt seem likely(even though it was dedicated to her)

Well anyway.. first off. I been up for 48 hours straight again....to finish my project...but im still not done. lol. The project is landscape, (as i have been talking about in the last post) and basically i have to stack 30 of these 1\16 inch boards on top of each other which collectively become 2 inches. Its tough..alot of work and alot of glue....Well anyway. I been up for 48 hours but not neccesarily constantly working, i had to take care of some business first.

Such as Gethsemane. What is Gethsemane? Its a combination of all the Christian clubs around the Ny and Nj area. Well not all but just one that happens to spread to alot of different colleges, called KCCC (Korean Campus Crusade for Christ). And you dont have to be korean. I was just founded by a Korean guy....well i shouldnt say that, it was founded by a white guy who then brought it to Korea and the koreans just decided to return the favor. Its alot of fun, good people, good food (after we buy it ourself though..well we dont have to buy it if we dont want to but since we're in NY..and hungry) Gethsemane is on every friday at 7 on 59 st and something....its in a school called P.S 111. (Tried to get mr Chan to come but ....)

Well thats not what i really wanted to talk about but what happened slightly before. Not around that day but a little before. ok...here goes..

NJIT and Rutgers (Newark) has a joined ministry called JUICE, basically we come together, sing songs have fellowship and listen to a sermon(like a lecture but more interesting and meaningful..well at least to me) But as went there, this fob girl kept on trying to make me say hello this other girl (who is pretty ok looking) and i cant really tell if shes trying to set us up but i wasnt really interested. But me and this girl did happen to talk a little, all i can say is that shes totally not my type. lol She goes to Rutgers Newark and I went to NJIT, even though the schools are right next to each other, i felt like its kinda pointless too. But then one night after Juice ended(every thursday night), the fob girl just grabed me, placed me in front of the girl and said "Josh give her your number" and i was just thinking to myself "OMG WHAT IF THIS TURNS INTO A RELATIONSHIP!!(not shouting in my mind because im happy but because i dont want to have one..yet) But not to be rude and because i couldnt say or think anything in that second...all i could do at that time was just hand her my number....after that, i started to think about things more, and I didnt know what to do ( i think im horrible at relationships, dont know what to do >.<, im like a little boy in kindergarten that can only pull hair because i dont know any other way to express how i feel...well that's what i think im like.. lol). Well anyway the next day was Gethsemane and she usually went, so i was a little nervous at what to do when i see her. Well when i saw her coming, i saw her hands laced around another hand....a boy. Not just a boy but a skinny skater punk boy. I guess that was the type she was into. I didnt know whether to be disappointed or relieved as i saw them stroll happily down the street. I guess somewhere in my mind i really do want a girlfriend but i wouldnt know what to do....because...im a dork haha But while we're taking the subway to New York, i just see then all over each other...Public display of affection was everywhere...IF THIS WAS INDIA THEY WOULD BE SCREWED! lol. Well seeing them "cuddle" each other, kinda made me want to cuddle too...so.... i hugged my friend who was next to me, and then sat down and closed my eyes for the next 20 minutes..lol (everyone thought i was sleeping) But throughout my night, my eyes just kept on just straying to them. and it made me kinda angry...maybe i should get one of those things that horses wear so they can see in only one direction.......haha
(This is not a cry out to the internet world for a girlfriend by the way)